Magoch

I came to a point where my enjoyment of any form of media dwindled. I never thought about why until I saw a video of a reviewer harshly talking about something and he said, "I have ideas..." The way he dragged ideaaas really irked me for some reason. Then I realized that was me. I was envious. What's the point in having ideas if I was going to hoard them?

Even in the tough situation I was in, I didn't want to bend and make some cliche-ridden story filled with keywords that the market is currently demanding. I didn't want to proclaim to be reinventing the wheel either. I wanted to capture what I was seeing around me and what I experienced. That feeling of being lost in life and letting the waves carry you.

While making the book, I was heavily inspired by podcasts. I thought about how much a powerful tool conversation is, and sometimes you can get so lost in them and wish you could join in and retort. This inspired the heavy dialogue approach I took. I also wanted the dialogue and characters to be realistic. And I mean real. No holding back. So I became really invested in the dialogue. I said their lines out loud and altered my voice to what I believed they would sound like. And over time I began to question whether I was putting myself into the characters or if I was becoming them.